Ok, today was actually a very sad day to end with for me, love the range duty done at the new range at HTA, it's kind of new experience for me there although dun get a chance to shoot... haha, love the chances to work with the Field Instructors of Tracom,WCI Lian yu,WCI Kim, Jasper and some other officers la.... haha.. fun duty at HTA la i shall say...... finally saw Dy.Warden of NPCC campsite in FULL U, first time sia...
After range duty, Lian yu, Kim, Jasper and me went to JP's Delifrance for a cup of drink, we actually trashed out lost of stuffs and all la....... jasper n i was like talking abt out unit's NDP parade at the starting part....... after that was the incoming National Camp 06 and some other issues...... really enjoyed the time there as well as the ride to kallang MRT station where jasper and I alighted...from kallang MRT, i walked all the way back from there to my place, blast my Nano to full volume, and think of ways to improve the problems i face in np, thought of all the problems i faced at home too but i can't find a solution to it cause family problem can't be solved by one member himself/herself, it's a whole family's effort..... but...... HAIZ.............
that's the boring say of mine........... 
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- The LONER Spoke @11:45:00 PM -
National Day coming le..........hint hint**
- The LONER Spoke @9:50:00 PM -
i really can't figure out y did i actually went to visit my old blog today, i felt very lonely and left out after reading some of the post there.
Wad actually happened to me, although there's one position to be filled in my heart, i shouldn't be feeling tt lonely because of that right? Nevertheless i have my classmates there for me, my cadets and fellow CIs, HOs and SCIs there......
haiz....but i still feel somewad lonely and being left alone, in fact i still miss her, but wad can i do about that? i could say/do nothing now or in the future to get back wad i have lost, wad passed have passed, time can't be twisted back to the past.......
LONELY ME........
- The LONER Spoke @5:23:00 PM -
Ok, have finished my Level 1 Coaching course for kayaking on sunday, wad's next....... it should be ppcdl ba..... have yet to study... the theory test is on 11th aug......... haiz...
Level 1 coaching course is quite fan i could say, learnt lotsa stuffs from richard lim, level 4 coach, it's nice having coached by him....... we were able to try out some kayaks that seldom ppl would have access to it, they are like dagger(a play boat), sea kayak, K1, T1,K2 and canadian canoe........... haha of all i still love dagger cause it's one of the few tt i enjoyed most...... K1 and K2 is my worst nightmare i could say la, K1 i can't even stay on it for 10secs without support from others.... k2 i didn't dare to try.... haha... dun wan trouble richard la... haha..... sea kayak, was fast but it's not much different from a dance, it has additional dry sealed place for goods and stuffs, and it has an additional rudder...... I m abit fearful of T1, when out sea, it felt so wobbly..... n it's like the CG is so easily changed due to movements....... nearly capsized.....
The best of all..... canadian canoe....... i tried it alone...... it's so difficult to change direction....... i was so scared tt the waves would crack the base of the canoe, it's so thin.... u can actually see the base ripple lightly when it crash waves............ it took those who went out alone about 10-15 mins just to change course on tt canoe......... it's so bloody hard la......... haha... but was glad i had a chance to try it out......
haha..... coaching trainee le..... wonder when will i actually start my attachment n get my coaching cert....... haha...... doubt it would be soon.........
- The LONER Spoke @6:21:00 PM -
now then u ask, y bother to ask when the time to ask have already past........ it isn't the first time, nor second, i have been holding back this phrase deep in my heart....... it's not the fact that i dun bother about u, i still bother, but can u please show concern at the right time?I hate this stupid roof, i hate it..... should i turn nasty just to get ur attentions? i really dun wish to.......
cries deep in.....
- The LONER Spoke @10:23:00 PM -
class....... class n class.......... i m sick of it liao la.....
BUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! because of them... my life in school changed........
- The LONER Spoke @10:34:00 PM -
thankz for those who r concerned......... my mum was discharged this afternoon but still..... the docs can't tell wad's the cause of fainting......
- The LONER Spoke @1:47:00 AM -
it was long long time ago where i last posted a post..........
sorry ppl, this post may made u all feel happy n sad for me......
here it goes......
although SYFOC 06 was a fruitful one for me, learnt alot of hard n soft skills from there....... should i say like or love? Ok.... I love the whole group of ppl i hang out with ever since i gt close to them since NPCC Day Parade this year........ the last parade tt i m involved this year is national day parade, which i hope i still will remain contact with them.........hang out with them too.....
The next day......... the worst day i ever had......... i receive the news of my mum being sent to hospital.......... she fainted after a day spent at my grandma's place.......my brother rushed down from home just to send her to hospital........ n i was left alone at home..... miserably waiting for updates from him..... i cried............. alone in the dark dark hse....... after hours........ i finally received a call from my brother while having HER online consoling me........... My mum was admitted in SGH but the doctors can't determine wad was the cause of her fainting.........
I stayed awake all night just hoping to receive msg tt she is alright........................ didn't sleep for the whole night....... went to school next day....... which is today..... after school i went to her ward to pay her a visit....... all i saw was a weak lady lying flat on the bed..... doing nothing but sleep.....
eventhough she is tt weak.... she still showed concern to me n constantly chasing me off as i gt school the next day with her faint voice........when i sat beside her, stroking her hands and ask her to rest.... tears started to fill my eyes....... but i constantly reminded myself tt i should not show her the soft side of me.... wad she need is to see her sons being strong beside her......... (o god y m i crying while typing all this....)
She can't even sit up........ even when she needed toilet..... we have to help getting a nurse to attend to her......... wad happen to my cute mummy........... y all this must happen to such a nice person....... y....................
y it's not happening to me but my loved ones.....................Y!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
- The LONER Spoke @9:34:00 PM -
dono wad is that
about me
name : tommy
age : 19
birthday: 10 aug 88
school : Ai Tong School
Macpherson Secondary School
Singapore
Polytechnic
Singapore
Maritime
Academy
CCA : SP NPCC,
NPCC,
SMAC,
SPRC
dreamland
outdoor sports
gals
the sun
kayaking
indoor sports
outdoor sports
HATES!
hypocrites
back stabbers
stubbon ppl
irritating ppl
AND MORE
WANTS.
#1 time
#2 new toy
#3 necklace
#4 DUFFER BAG
#5 new phone
#6 new shoe
#7 tons of new clothes
#8 ADDIDAS/NIKE JACKET
#9 OAKLEY POLARIZED SUN GLASSES
#10 CRUMPLE SLING BAG
[*to be continued...*]
