went for bowling, pool and dinner with SMA ppl.... really had a great time with them......thanks guys....
went to help jasmin la.... settle her prob.... not really help la... just be there for her onli....
when her thing settled.... my prob came...... FUCK la.. really FUCK.... y must friends leave one by one.... freak la...... KX msg me.... asking me to leave her.... she dun wanna lose friends because of me....... i really don understand lo..... can't we just be friends..... just simple friends..... i dun wanna lose any friends lo.... wad r in gal's minds huh... i really wish to know......PISSED
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- The LONER Spoke @11:29:00 PM -
Ok, today was filled with screamings from CIIs la.. i think it's partially J05 CITs fault la.. we aren't tt responsive and all la.. i really think we guys should buck up la.. seriously i m really bad at remembering names la.. so it's kinda impossible for me to remember all the CIIs names la.. but i will try..
ok la.. we r the first batch to undergo CSSP( community safety & security programme).. it was not launched for cadets yet.. most prob next yr or later... it was really a recap lesson for me la.. haha.. those things i have undergo it during my years as a cadet or a councillor in MPSS.. had alot of lectures today la.. no.1 uniform for CIs really very nice.. haha..
ok the group discussion for ATC was S_X.... the things tt my sub-divided group had done weeks ago, was missing.. shit them la.. those important stuffs were nowhere to be found... all my efforts or should i say my group's effort have been washed down the drain...... and worst of all.. all the time given to discuss was snatched by our CII!!!! in the end, nothing was discussed, n we had to meet up on monday la..... haiz..
- The LONER Spoke @9:03:00 PM -
haiz.... didn't update for days le... lazy.. tt's the word to describe....
today was SP's FOP(freshman orientation programme)... had so many talks.. haha.. then gt SP song n pledge too.. so sucky... but the lecturers all look nice la... dono how they r like till school reopens.. haha... didn't go through the whole thing la.. skipped the whole thing after lunch.. haha.. went to play bowl in SP.... then went to orchard to play pool... so fun... haha...then had dinner with the rest who pon la.. haha.. at LJS.. then went home with the "obasan", jasmin, haha.. but didn't accompany her all the way back la.. haha.. i alight at my train stop.. haha.. then went home.. haha.. really had a great chat with her the whole day la.. she, ka woon and samamtha, brightened my day.. hha.. real nice knowing u guys.. although we not in the same course.... haha.... thankz......
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- The LONER Spoke @10:39:00 PM -
The Keys to Your Heart |
| You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. |
| In love, you feel the most alive when everything is uncertain, one moment heaven... the next moment hell. |
| You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. |
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| Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. |
| Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. |
| You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. |
| In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted. |
What Are The Keys To Your Heart?
saw this in one person's bloggy.. decided to try n here i have a ans for myself....
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- The LONER Spoke @11:58:00 AM -
9th may
1st day of the RC, Residential Course, learnt the basic arms drill with M16 which i have nv have a chance to do so in MSS, it's sort of a very good learning time for me as i was always curious with drills, esp arms drill. Recaping all the knots and lashings learnt in NPCC, and learnt the explainations and all... then learnt Facilitation, we were told tt, we facilitate the NCOs in school then the NCOs will TEACH the cadets.. TEACH not equal to FACILITATE....had really a tiring day, 3 ground rules have been made for us by our CIIs, they are listen with an open heart, think before u speak and act and lastly, be a leader and a follower, then at night in bunk, crap alot with my bunk mates, aaron, kee kian, gao ming and two other guys, forgot their names le.. hehe....slept around 1
10th may
2nd day of RC, woke up at about 515, have PT at 6, so tiring, next was breakfast, then dry shoot, haha.. .38 CHIEFS SPECIAL REVOLVER MODEL NO. 36.. it's slightly smaller than .38 tauros that i had fired a few years back...then had foot drills... really very sian then.. haha.. knots and lashings again.. haha.. then learnt orienteering... haha.. then had mass run just before dinner.. tt really kills my appitite... slept around 1 again to study n chat with my bunk mates
11th may
3rd day of RC, woke up around the same time again.... n the routine goes again.. but tt day gt dry shoot agin then had arms drills, learnt hormat and all.. it's totally different from Mark 4/ Mark5 used in schools, then had foot drills, then after lunch had SWORD DRILL.. FUN... tt's really nice and shiok doing tt.. haha.. love sword drills... then after tt learnt how to make rope obstacles.. haha.. quite fun la the day.. haha..
12th may
4th day of RC, everything seems routine to me liao.. haiz.. learnt more about orienteering, radio communications, flag staff and tent pitching... tt's really a packed day for us... really tired out liao.. but our MINDS OVER BODY.... REN~~~~
13th may
5th day of RC, learnt learnt baton drill and drill cane drill.. haha... then had practice shoot... haha.. I gt the HIGHEST in my squad n higher than those whom i know.. haha... then learnt arms drills again but this time was advance arms drills....learnt slow marching too...
14th may
6th day of RC, last day of training... learnt modular tent, then went for games and orienteering, really had a great time tt day... learnt much n through the games.. i know where i n my squad stands, and how good r our leadership and coordination was....in the evening.. had debrief from our instrustors... those words he say really very touching la.. made many of us cried.. really had a good time with him... he may be fierce but it was because he love us.. wan us to do our best...
15th may
last day of RC, had our assessments.. i was given the topic basic drills... really worked all the way for tt... n many thinks my MOI was good... haha.. i not sure about tt la.. hha.. tt's their comments.. even from the CIIs... and had paper assessment too.. haiz.. i misread a few questions.. hope i can pass la.. haha.. my written isn't tt good la.. i know it deep in me..
SQUAD 3 WARRIORS, ALL THE WAY... WE ARE THE BEST... thank you squad mates.. u all have gave me the best camp squad ever.. thank you... yi xian, jared, huda, eddie, jian boon, marinah, wei chang, zhan ming, issac, joshua, chang hing, luke, jeanne, syaifu and lastly nadzirah... THANKS FOR ALL THE MEMORIES
won't be online for the next 4 days as i going for the SMA's FOC(Freshman Orientation Camp)....
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- The LONER Spoke @1:23:00 PM -
What Is Love?
Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing, And your voice caught within your chest?
It isn't Love, it's Like.
You can't keep your eyes or hands off of them, am I right?
It isn't Love, it's Lust.
Are you proud, and eager to show them off?
It isn't Love, it's Luck.
Do you want them because you know they're there?
It isn't Love, it's Loneliness.
Are you there because it's what everyone wants?
It isn't Love, it's Loyalty.
Do you stay for their confessions of Love, because you don't want to hurt them?
It isn't Love, it's Pity.
Are you there because they kissed you, or held your hand?
It isn't Love, it's being Unconfident.
Do you belong to them because their sight makes your heart skip a beat?
It isn't Love, it's Infatuation.
Do you pardon their faults because you care about them?
It isn't Love, it's Friendship.
Do you tell them every day they are the only one you think of?
It isn't Love, it's a Lie.
Are you willing to give all of your favorite things for their sake?
It isn't Love, it's Charity.
Does your heart ache and break when they're sad?
Then it's Love.
Are you attracted to others, but stay with them faithfully without regret?
Then it's Love.
Do you accept their faults because they're a part of who they are?
Then it's Love.
Do you cry for their pain, even when they're strong?
Then it's Love.
Do their eyes see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply it hurts?
Then it's Love.
But do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain and elation pulls you close
and holds you?
Then it's Love.
Would you give them your heart, your life, your death?
Then it's Love.
Now, if Love is painful, and tortures us so,
Why do we Love?
Why is it all we search for in life?
This pain, this agony?
Why is it all we long for?
This torture, this powerful death of self?
Why?
Because it's...Love
- The LONER Spoke @2:35:00 AM -
3rd may
didn't do much tt day, ironed my uniform, polished my boots till it peels, went for sec 2 ATC planning meeting... haha.... the few of us really crap alot in the meeting lo... haha.... then really chat alot.. know one another better too... haha...
4th may
ok la tt day really did nothing much.... went back to school to get my HOMEWORK done.. but can't find arkram as he was in a meeting... then i had to turn to the NCOs for the ans... haha.. then stayed there for quite awhile la.. haha.. then went for branch at 3 plus with YW n his the other half..... haha.. talked quite abit la.. haha.. then went to meet raymond then we go play pool n walk walk.. haha.. quite fun la.... haha..
5th may
had meeting in the afternoon but it didn't last la.. cause we r like 9/10 done.... haha.. then really talked alot this time.. crap too....haha... then i went down to school to find arkram again for my HOMEWORK..... haha..... then he gave me the list in less than 5 mins la... haha.. but i waited for half an hour or so lo.....haha.... then meet raymond and friends for gym but didn't go gym all thanks to raymond.. haha.. we went to play pool haha... again... then went walk walk.. haha.. tt ends my day just like tt...haha.....
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- The LONER Spoke @2:22:00 AM -
ok i was woken up by mum yesterday morning, actually was suppose to pay respect to my granddad but i didn't go as i was really worn out after the long hours of the course and the long hours i spent online chatting with my squadmates and friends.....instead, i spent the time sleeping at my grandma's place... my cousin tt too went for the course was down with fever... haiz..
in the afternoon i went out to meet raymond, ready for our long night.. haha.. went to meet at bugis where we walk around to kill time before meeting the rest.... went to grab a bite at LJS then alvin called .. haha.. suppose to meet him at 430 but we reached city hall at 5... haha.. yue long was late too.. haha..everyone seems to be late except alvin... haha..... we walked from suntec to marina square... then to the pool center in marina square... so fun.. spent about an hour there.. then we went on the esplanade... there's like a NTUC fare thingy there.. then gt concert n all... then they give out free Mc n KFC food.... haha.. then greedy raymond n alvin ask us all to take a few pack each.. then we went on to get a space to see the fireworks.... guess wad... we have taken like 17 boxes of Mc food.. haha.. there's mc chicken burger, 2 mc wings and a harsh brown in one box alone... i ate one, alvin 4, raymond 5 and yue long 2... haha...then the rest we gave to a aunite.. haha..
gt alot of pics taken.. haha.. can see my MSN space.. i will put it up.... then we went on to suntec de arcade to play.. haha.. after tt, it was like near 1145 le... then we headed to K BOX... haha..... we stayed in it till like 345 when they chase us out.... hha..... had real fun there... haha.. we drank... haha.. i personally sang a few songs, eg, 'the reason', 'qing fei de yi', 'lian ai da ren', 'peng you', 'pieces of me' by ashlee, 'tou diao'... and a lot more.. haha.. danced n there too.. haha.. really had great fun with my new buddies...... haha... hope we will have time to do tt again... haha... then we went on to walk to merlion thre to have a good chat.. we chat till like 5..... haha.. then walk to bras bersa...had a drink then they went to play pool while i fell asleep for a while there.. BOO...then we headed seperate ways home.. haha... reached home at about 730.. i slept till like 3.... haha..
REALLY NICE BEING WITH U GUYS..... THANKZ...
k today i didn't do much la.. haha.. polished my boots.... adding another foundation.. haha... tml have to meet my squadmates tml for some work.... haiz.. so troublesome.. haiz
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- The LONER Spoke @11:03:00 PM -
dono wad is that
about me
name : tommy
age : 19
birthday: 10 aug 88
school : Ai Tong School
Macpherson Secondary School
Singapore
Polytechnic
Singapore
Maritime
Academy
CCA : SP NPCC,
NPCC,
SMAC,
SPRC
dreamland
outdoor sports
gals
the sun
kayaking
indoor sports
outdoor sports
HATES!
hypocrites
back stabbers
stubbon ppl
irritating ppl
AND MORE
WANTS.
#1 time
#2 new toy
#3 necklace
#4 DUFFER BAG
#5 new phone
#6 new shoe
#7 tons of new clothes
#8 ADDIDAS/NIKE JACKET
#9 OAKLEY POLARIZED SUN GLASSES
#10 CRUMPLE SLING BAG
[*to be continued...*]
