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Sunday, March 27, 2005

today woke up late again... so sad lo... have to take cab again.. haha... then we i entered OG, it was about 1058 le... luckly i punch in before 11... haha, if not have to get fined le...

today my supervisor did afternoon shift... but she came at about 2 plus near to 3...

for the whole day i was in the cashier... helping jesline, doing packing... after these few days in the cashier, i learnt alot about cashier work... it's very easy lo... i know all the keys le... haha... just now she listening to phone i help her scan and all..... haha... shhh... not suppose to de... haha...

then kanna asked by supervisor by phone to pack the hanes counter... so sad lo... i pack neatly le then a couple hours later it became extremely messy le lo... i observed from far after tt.. mostly is GALS who mess it up... be it auntie or young gals... haiz... so sad lo... while packing the second time... a lady with her daughter came to see the products... she took it from the counter n see the pattern instead of seeing them on the rack... i stared at them lo... then they turned to look at the rack... seem like they are afraid of me or wad lo.. haha..:P

WHERE R U, M... nv reply me de....:(

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- The LONER Spoke @10:30:00 PM -



worked full shift since last week... today went to work with my eyes half shut... so sian lo... still have to fold hanes clothes... folder the whole 2 racks lo... then went to cashier to help packing... luckly onli 1 sensor tag not taken off... then the alarm activated when the customer leave the shop...so sorry to tt lady.... haiz... how i know tt underwear gt... usually offer items no sensor tag de.... haiz...

went for dinner/lunch/breakfast at 5... so hungry... ate yong tou fu...tt hour passed so quickly...

went in for work... then help with packing again... can say the whole day at cashier 1.... haha... the lady's undergarments i all pass to the cashier to wrap... haha:)...cause it's quite unsightful for a guy to handle with it ma....hehe

haiz... tml work full shift again... friends... come visit me... i very sian... thankz... love ya lotz..... `

M i still love u...

nice chatting with u on the way home n in LJS, zq... wad a friend i have... thankz...

thank you von for ur gift... i love it... thankz

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- The LONER Spoke @12:04:00 AM -


Friday, March 25, 2005

i think i will update tml night ba... today worked from 0930 to 0030... so late right... so i going to sleep le... tml still have to reach OGOP by 1000...haiz... tc

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- The LONER Spoke @1:11:00 AM -


Tuesday, March 22, 2005

this morning woken up by pl's msg... asking me to check wad school i going to be in.... haven't even brushed my teeth...switched on my computer n went to the webby... to my surprise... S63...Marine Engineering...Singapore Poly...rushed to my brother's room to share the happy news with him... called my dad too, but he nv pick up... sad...

went online for a while... haha.. justin n some in my class going sRJC... haha... n found out tt mus' got into the same course as me... haha... 2 friends in tt course le... haha... went off for work after tt...

today my supervisor still not there.. so sad lo... haven't tell her my answer... i wanna QUIT on 31st, LATEST....a few new ppl there today.... kickers promoter, a gal, forgot her name le... maui & son promoter, came for relief, forget her name also... dockers/levi's promoter...Sally... haha... all gals.... so sad... now i m surrounded by gals... no guys around me le.... so sad.. tml VF off.. i going to be at BILLABONG counter for the day again.. so sad... lonely island.. no one to talk to le...haiz...

dad came to fetch me after work... he drove his lorry... hehe...love it man... long time nv sit lorry le...n i told him the course i entering n his face turned... he seemed upset, disappointed...haiz... then never talked on the way home le... he kept so quiet for rest of the journey, a five minutes journey seemed so long for me then....sad...

made a gal i love irritated.. sorry M... really sorry... hope u forgive me...

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- The LONER Spoke @10:54:00 PM -


Monday, March 21, 2005

woken up by my bro in the morning... he went off for work while i prepare myself for tanning again at TPY's swimming complex... set of at about 1130... the weather was great today... just tt the clouds occationally block off the sun... haiz.... it was sorta delightful day for me... haha.. i love the nature... esp the SUN... haha...

packed up at about 2... went straight to the bathe room... haiz... met a weird guy there... he was changing when i entered... after my bathe.. i came out to change, he smiled at me.... of coz i smile back ma... li mao... haha... he sat there n drink.... as if he waiting for me like tt... staring at me... eeee... i sorta rushed out of the bathe room... he then approached me n stoped me at the exit... he ask if he can have my no... so weird right... then i ask y... u know wad he said... "i just wanna befriend u... maybe we can meet up sometime... maybe go clubbing or wad so ever..."....i just walked away saying bye..... he's in his early 30s.... shit him lo...looks so decent, how i know he got motive de... he's a GAY.... eeeeeya.... hope next time i go there, i won't meet him again...

yeah....pl say my skin colour darkened... haha... (tanning was useful today... haha)

haiz.... went out with pl n jasmine(mss councillor 01-04).. went to TM... they were like searching for presents n i looking for nice board shorts... haiz... they managed to get the stuffs they wanted but i didn't.... eh.. ppl out there...if u see any nice board shorts pls tell me... cause i want a new board shorts...hehe...thankxzxxxzxzx.....

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- The LONER Spoke @10:00:00 PM -


Sunday, March 20, 2005

today i was so stupid this morning... took a cab to work... but half way have to ask the uncle to turn back just to take my tag n punch card... forgotten to bring... so pai seh lo... the whole trip cost me abt $10... so ke lian right... by the time i reach there...didn't even have time for breakfast when i reach there... it's already 1045 le lo... haiz

haiz... stupid supervisor... ask me give her ans today but she not there...haiz...so sad lo... i really dun wanna work le... i rather focus on packing my rooms n all lo... it's better i think....

after work... recieved a few msg from KX... she sorta hinting something...althought i gt the meaning, i still msg her back asking wad she hinting... haiz... as i expected.. she said nothing... haiz.. y must gal's thoughts be so chim de... haiz

talked abt alot of things in the bus with pl... finally i realised tt having someone who i can talk to like everyday is really very good lo...i felt much relieved after talking to her...i wanted someone else but she sorta avoiding me in a sense... i dono wad she thinking too... haiz.. hope i can understand gals more...

ending the day just like tt... so sianz.... update again tml... or wad lo.... nightz

- The LONER Spoke @11:45:00 PM -


Saturday, March 19, 2005

randy dua me again... say wanna go sentosa with me today but in the end say dun wan le... shit him la...bluff this silly little boy's feeling again...

woke up around 11 n prepared for tanning... stayed home till like 1215... then went to TPY's swimming complex ALONE to tann.... but there isn't much sun rays there to make me look tanned after all...there isn't much ppl there today... no babes no hunks... onli ppl like me... fair n fat... wanting to change our skin colour so as to look slimmer... haha... i think so la... dono how they think...it's so crappy lo... there's onli sudden strong rays on n off onli lo... clouds keep blocking off the sun rays... it's was so shitty tt at about 2, it started to drizzle... no sun at all le lo... no choice but to pack n go.... i went home straight...

waiting at home with mum for my dear bro who is having his first working day just after NS... he just finish his NS yesterday...went shopping together at suntec after on... went into many shops there, at first say i wanna get things de... but in the end is my bro n mum doing most of the shopping... the addidas T i wanted was not tt nice on me... in the end decided not to purchase it... went on the levi's stall... wanna get the N3BP... but i hesitated, left it alone n went on shopping, went into bodynits, tried a cargo pant, but it was uncomfortable wearing it... so decided not to get it... AGAIN...(ppl, i know i very indecisive... sorry...tt's me, i need ppl give me opinions de), while my bro tried 3 pants... he bought 2 of those he tried... he see, try, n buy... not like me... still have to think de... haiz....

went on the S&K, tried a cargo pant there, omg i tried the 31 n it sort of going to drop le... then force myself to ask the sales assistance to get me a 30 or a 29 de(cause i think i not tt small size after all)... he brought me both... i tried the 30 as i think i not tt skinny... this time my mum just took it away n cash it straight after she sees me in it... she didn't even wait for my reply if i wanted it... she asked tt guy to get a new pair n cashed it while i still in the fitting room... i think tt she can't stand me le la... haha...thankz mum... then dad called, ask for a meet up for dinner...

went for dinner together, left my bro's car near the fire station near my hse...we went old airport road for dinner... saw Li Ling but nv talk... she watched my family eat.. haa..she working there ma... haha...again, my mum ask me abt relationship thingy... i tried to change topic but failed so i keep quiet lo...:(

again...my day ending off just like tt... so sian right... haha... maybe tml will be a better day for me... or it's the ending day of my life... who knows right... haha... tata... update again tml

- The LONER Spoke @10:50:00 PM -



the day started off with the alarm of my phone, blasting of the ringing tone into my ears....i woke up just to switch it off, n later went back to my dreamland... lucky tt my mum came into my room to wake me up if not i really gonna be late le....after the morning routine at home.. off i went for work...

felt so happy for my bro today... today is the day where he collect his pink IC back n return all his CD's(Civil Defense) stuffs... today is his ROD... too bad i can't be there to witness it... sad... but he still have his GF there with him...

everyday i have to drag myself up for work... i m really sick n tired of this bloody job already.... it's so routine lo... eh friends.. come visit me at OP when u r free... i really very sianz at there... pls bring along some sweets n all... i really need it cause there really VERY VERY the sianz.... thankz arh...

today billabong counter achieved aound 1K.... it is my counter for the day... haha...

haiz... kanna bullied by li lan (the converse promoter).... everyone is like aiming for my cheek... they say it's fleshy n nice to pinch..."öuch!!"...after the floor closed, my supervisor came to me n asked me to work till like april 20th... she ask me go back consider... but i gt an ans in mind... I DUN WAN....because of this stupid job, i lose alot of things le... relationship that i once treasured, friendships that i wanted to last, n most importantly, FREEDOM....

guess tt's for the day ba... update again soon... i mean real soon....

- The LONER Spoke @3:30:00 PM -


Thursday, March 17, 2005

haven't been updating my blog for about half a month or so le...haiz... days aren't much different for me... everyday work... depends onli on wad kind of shift i working... N(morning...1030-1820), A(afternoon...1330-2130) or F(full...1100-2130)... on my off days...either spend it with YW n PL, if not is onli PL or YW... von seems to have disappeared from my life... online chat with her online... other than that, nothing else le... haiz... seems to have lose a close friend le.... so sad.... hope she comes back to my life soon.... i mean REAL SOON...(hope u see this von)

a few days back... told my supervisor tt i quitting on the 20th... but she forced me to with her tone n all... she want me to stay till 31th or even 11th next month... so sad right... i really hate this job... it's so boring n stiff... dun have much free time for myself de... moreover the pay quite low after CPF..... haiz.... had to stay till 31th due to the OGOP's one years old celebration on 24th(PRIVITE SALES) only those with the coupon are allowed to enter(SAD:()... storewide 30% off... (sorry guys, BILLABONG dun have discounts... but gt a free briefcase... haha....but must spend at lease S$120...then from 25th till 27th... OG storewide 20% sales... excluding BILLABONG... haha...

on monday... act. i off de.. but my supervisor sent me to albert to help with the mailer thingy... met ting ting from OGPP n ingrid from level 3 OGOP de... we started off like strangers... but soon we kick it off n gt closer... went for lunch together at 2... went to bugis de food court to have our meal...while eating... saw jac( ex councillor of MPSS..she was sacked last year)... she told me tt ting ting looks like my mum n ingrid looks like my sister.... but ting ting is onli 16 while ingrid is onli 18.... i was like laughing like hell when i hear tt... didn't mention to them about tt.....after work at 1930, we went shopping in bugis till about 9.... went off seperate ways then...

haiz today damn sad... xiao bai's last day( jason, Maui & Sons' promoter)... he is my best friend in OGOP.... but now he's gone... no one to talk to... no one to shop with me... no one to eat with me... no one to eat snake with me...haiz...so sad lo.... hope tml won't be bored to death... have to learn to be indepent le... haix.. everything DIY.....haiz

guess i stop here... tml still have to work... posting of school would be out soon... good luck my friends... haha... ALL THE BEST FRIENDS... hope i can get into marine engineering in SP... haha....bye....update again soon... hehe

- The LONER Spoke @2:40:00 PM -


dono wad is that





about me
name : tommy
age : 19
birthday: 10 aug 88
school : Ai Tong School
Macpherson Secondary School
Singapore Polytechnic
Singapore Maritime Academy

CCA : SP NPCC,
NPCC,
SMAC,
SPRC


dreamland
outdoor sports
gals
the sun
kayaking
indoor sports
outdoor sports

HATES!
hypocrites
back stabbers
stubbon ppl
irritating ppl
AND MORE



WANTS.
#1 time
#2 new toy
#3 necklace
#4 DUFFER BAG
#5 new phone
#6 new shoe
#7 tons of new clothes
#8 ADDIDAS/NIKE JACKET
#9 OAKLEY POLARIZED SUN GLASSES
#10 CRUMPLE SLING BAG
[*to be continued...*]